Days Like These

Yesterday was the last viewing for my grandfather. Today is the funeral. I am grateful that while my grief has been overwhelming at times, I have had only one bad day with my depression. The difference has been surprisingly stark, mainly because grief doesn't take away my ability to focus on productive or thought intensive tasks to distract myself. The following is a brief list of the things I have accomplished while grieving heavily, that I could not do while heavily depressed.

In the past three days I have:

• Sorted through and purged my e-mail inbox, including 750 unread e-mails and hundreds more marked as read but never deleted. These e-mails stretched back more than five years.
• Claimed Kickstarter rewards on Steam that were inaccessible to me for several years because I did not have a working computer.
• Laundered all my sheets, blankets, and pillow cases.
• Read two 500+ page books, and half of a third.
• Made tentative travel plans for major events in June, July, August, and September.
• Organized a carpool to a weekend-long event next month.

And this is all in addition to working normal shifts Tuesday and Wednesday, writing my last post on Tuesday, and attending the viewing last night.

The more aware I become of how depression affects me, the more I realize I need to get help for it. Because despite my grief, I want more days like these.